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means that life can be busy at times, excruciatingly dull at others, but certainly interesting on most days. this morning on day three of posting positive for dollars, i do not feel like such a phony and perhaps there is a bit more balance in my life because of this little **sponsored** activity. i am not a very happy camper this morning, simply because what should have been done weeks ago, selling our Mexican asset, is still dragging on and on. hopefully when i wire the money this morning, i can finally get this process completed and get these odious people out of my life. i once believed that i was good at blame-shifting, until i met the broker that has been “helping” me through the process. as i signed a contract agreeing not to disparage them, until they had a chance to “make things right” i will not mention any names or companies and once i get through the process, they are going to have a whole lot of 'splaining to do, to make things “right” with me. now that i have dumped that little bit of nastiness, i think i may be able to move along, as there really is nothing to see here. one thing that i am grateful for, is my YELP account and soon enough they may feel the sting of a not so complimentary review.
i could stay there and whine some more, however, balance is my goal today and i need to add a bit of light to that bit of darkness. no i am not going to wash my feelings of frustration and anger away in a wave of perspective shifting. i am, instead, going to shift my focus in another direction. i am looking at an opportunity to move along from what i am doing. in a spiritual sense, it makes sense, in a practical and financial sense, maybe not so much. it adds at least ten minutes to my commute, i will “lose” a week of paid time off and i may have to take a pay cut. i know i am projecting, as i have not even gone for the in-person interview and lately i have really sucked at those. most of my less than contented look at life is because i really do not like what i am doing for a job today and that discontent leaches into all other areas of my life. a case in point, i am far from enchanted with meetings in my home town these days and as a result i feel like a “tourist” in the fellowship close to home, at least when it comes to meetings. the fact that i am still attending the same number of meetings really is not helping the feeling of alienation i am creating for those who share the same zip code. yes, whining about it, will probably not change anything, but it just may start a chain reaction in my spiritual world, that creates a DESIRE for me to do something about it.
so two paragraphs about what is not going well does not allow for a whole lot of balance. what is going well and that i might even say i feel “good” about? well, after the blood work came back, my cholesterol is the lowest it has ever been, my blood sugar was borderline high and my risk factors for stroke and coronary artery disease are very low. fairly decent results and nothing to indicate that i cannot move forward with my fitness program. i may not be doing a marathon yet, but i have at least stopped “thinking” about doing something to improve my physical self and moved into action. that very thought changing intent into action is certainly a great place to be right here and right now. as i am working from home once again, i do believe that now is the time to pick up my not so lazy a$$ and get some miles in, before i get chained to the keyboard for the next few hours. it is a good day to be clean and a better one to see both sides of what is.

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