a new frontier
Posted: Thu, Nov 4, 2004 05:14:07 AM
my life is a new frontier?
HMMMMMMM
i have not considered that before but it does make sense, after all i hardly know what today may bring let alone tomorrow. so maybe i should just let go and see what happens. this brings me back to the 3rd step surrendering to the loving care of a POWER GREATER than me.
To explore this uncharted territory, as i am forced to do on a daily basis, i do need a powerful and reliable vehicle. after all i may get lost, but i hardly want to break down in the middle of terra incognito. the reading strongly suggests that i use the LOVE i have found since i came to the program. today i know that love comes from many sources, most of which were available to me before i reached the point of admitting that i was an addict. GOD, my family, my friends and most of all those who were on this path before i decided to walk it are the source of the LOVE i have received since getting clean. each of these provide me with the LOVE i need today to move forward and have shown me that i can also love myself and derive strength from there too!
this abundance of LOVE needs to be given freely to those in my life so i can keep it. the concept of giving away what i have been given in order to keep it goes against my self-centered, selfish nature, however i have seen what happens to those who choose to hold on to their gifts tightly -- they sicken, withdraw and eventually return to their previous state, active addiction! today i want to thrive not merely survive, so i guess i need to follow the simple suggestion that was provided in today’s reading.
-- DT --
HMMMMMMM
i have not considered that before but it does make sense, after all i hardly know what today may bring let alone tomorrow. so maybe i should just let go and see what happens. this brings me back to the 3rd step surrendering to the loving care of a POWER GREATER than me.
To explore this uncharted territory, as i am forced to do on a daily basis, i do need a powerful and reliable vehicle. after all i may get lost, but i hardly want to break down in the middle of terra incognito. the reading strongly suggests that i use the LOVE i have found since i came to the program. today i know that love comes from many sources, most of which were available to me before i reached the point of admitting that i was an addict. GOD, my family, my friends and most of all those who were on this path before i decided to walk it are the source of the LOVE i have received since getting clean. each of these provide me with the LOVE i need today to move forward and have shown me that i can also love myself and derive strength from there too!
this abundance of LOVE needs to be given freely to those in my life so i can keep it. the concept of giving away what i have been given in order to keep it goes against my self-centered, selfish nature, however i have seen what happens to those who choose to hold on to their gifts tightly -- they sicken, withdraw and eventually return to their previous state, active addiction! today i want to thrive not merely survive, so i guess i need to follow the simple suggestion that was provided in today’s reading.
-- DT --