↔ i have tried everything i can think of, exerted every ounce of force possible …
Posted: Sat, Jul 26, 2008 09:39:55 AM
to fill the spiritual hole inside of me. sitting here on vacation, and doing a bit of work and contemplating the family dynamic that is going on, that i am not part of, makes for an interesting morning. now this topic comes up, namely replacing a void with the love and care of a POWER GREATER THAN ME. i know that without what i have learned about myself, and without a bit of open-mindedness to principles beyond my desire to believe, i would not be here right now. oh i might still be alive eking out a miserable existence and caving to the grinding pressure of life in active addiction.
family reunions, a significant other, being successfully self-employed, self-assured enough to write what i think and post it on the internet. none of that would have been possible, nor would i even be capable of imagining that i could have such a life. so what changed? well i finally surrendered to the fact, that i lacked something, that something was a spiritual connection. through that connection, created and nourished by the daily maintenance of my recovery program, i get everything i need to survive in this modern, complicated world. and so much more!
i could go on and on, but i need to take my place in the shower queue and get ready to be present for those i happen to be sharing this day with. so off to another day of family vacation in the mountains and into living life as fully as i can!
family reunions, a significant other, being successfully self-employed, self-assured enough to write what i think and post it on the internet. none of that would have been possible, nor would i even be capable of imagining that i could have such a life. so what changed? well i finally surrendered to the fact, that i lacked something, that something was a spiritual connection. through that connection, created and nourished by the daily maintenance of my recovery program, i get everything i need to survive in this modern, complicated world. and so much more!
i could go on and on, but i need to take my place in the shower queue and get ready to be present for those i happen to be sharing this day with. so off to another day of family vacation in the mountains and into living life as fully as i can!
∞ DT ∞