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or as hard as i choose to make it, is really not such a tough nut to swallow. i am always leery of my peers who come into the program and seem to get the notion that unconditional surrender is the ONLY way forward, because of my unwillingness to give an inch. even after a minute clean, i still =make a daily attempt to influence the way the world true, through the sheer force of my will. this morning, as i pound out a quickie, i can be certain that most of this day, i will be incapable of influencing how things go. i will be above the treeline for hours, while i am on top of Colorado. i will be riding in a car with a friend who certainly drives in a somewhat aggressive manner. during all of those activities, i have no issue in surrendering to powers that are greater than me. my life is certainly in their care. for the rest of the time, i just have to allow myself the freedom to surrender and be well. after all, in my recent experience, it is holding on to what i think i know that has given me all my angst.

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