💸 sex, money, 💀
Posted: Tue, Jul 26, 2022 07:55:36 AM
property, power, or prestige just do not trip my trigger anymore, or at least not the way they used to. to say that they do not have any influence of my behaviors would be a flat-out lie. what has changed, is that i no longer seek those things to fill myself up. got to admit, i still feel envious and jealous of my peers who seem to have it “all.” when i feel those feelings, i have to, as suggested by the reading this morning, surrender to the fact that i am powerless over my feelings, acknowledge that they exist and take a peek at what it is that is going on inside of me, after all, i really do have it “all,” just not enough of it! 😉
my long lost luggage returned home last night and i am grateful for that. i got my stuff back, now i have to deal with a suitcase full of dirty clothes. it is ironic that just when i had surrendered to the fact that i may not see any of my stuff ever again, it just shows up. HIGHER POWER? maybe. life on its own terms, definitely! it is all good, even the very pokey drive into work this morning. it kind of sucks that even when i leave early, i still end-up getting slowed down. the fact is, i have to surrender to the fact that i am not the only one who has to drive to work. even though i overslept by ten minutes and postponed doing this little ditty until i arrived at my desk, i still arrived at almost the exact same time. once again, life on life's terms. all of that aside, what i felt as i rushed to get everything done this morning was a sense of being better than i have been in the past few weeks. i feel as if i am succeeding at work, at home and at fitness, regardless of what my FitBit may indicate. as i get back into the swing of living my life and trying to figure out the next correct thing to do, i am certain that i have the ability to be present, see the opportunities as they come my way and surrender, unconditionally that those opportunities may not be what i want, but are certainly just what i need, just for right now.
my long lost luggage returned home last night and i am grateful for that. i got my stuff back, now i have to deal with a suitcase full of dirty clothes. it is ironic that just when i had surrendered to the fact that i may not see any of my stuff ever again, it just shows up. HIGHER POWER? maybe. life on its own terms, definitely! it is all good, even the very pokey drive into work this morning. it kind of sucks that even when i leave early, i still end-up getting slowed down. the fact is, i have to surrender to the fact that i am not the only one who has to drive to work. even though i overslept by ten minutes and postponed doing this little ditty until i arrived at my desk, i still arrived at almost the exact same time. once again, life on life's terms. all of that aside, what i felt as i rushed to get everything done this morning was a sense of being better than i have been in the past few weeks. i feel as if i am succeeding at work, at home and at fitness, regardless of what my FitBit may indicate. as i get back into the swing of living my life and trying to figure out the next correct thing to do, i am certain that i have the ability to be present, see the opportunities as they come my way and surrender, unconditionally that those opportunities may not be what i want, but are certainly just what i need, just for right now.
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