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when i am at peace, i am most likely to treat others with respect and compassion. BUT ...
so better behaving through better thinking? well i have done that before, and more than likely seeing my spiritual state as a reflection on how i am feeling about those people i happen to run into in the course of my daily affairs. both of those topics are more than fertile ground to plant the seed and move into writing something. they are wonderful topics, but my mind goes elsewhere this morning. in fact i almost started to write a just for yesterday blog, remarking how similar the two readings are, and how i had never noticed that in the past.
so where, pray tell am i going this morning? well it is a similar vein, but just a bit off, for me, i see that how i treat others is a reflection on how i treat myself. yes, when i treat others with compassion, respect and empathy it is quite possible that i am spiritually sound, but what i think is also going on, is that i am treating myself with respect and compassion anyhow. it is a bit difficult to be empathetic with your self, unless of course you subscribe to the many people in one theory, which is not something i tend to find useful. when i am kinder and gentler with the world around me, i am more than likely being kinder and gentler to myself, and so on…
…the point being that how i treat myself is as good of indicator of mys spiritual condition as how i treat others, although it is far less obvious to me. so how can i tell? well the reading suggests and my experience has shown me that a daily inventory is the best means for me to discover my true spiritual condition. one of the questions i ask myself, is how did i treat myself today. the answer is often quite a shock but it does help me look for ways to be more active in living a program of recovery. and the more active i am in living the program, the more spiritually fit i become over time. no the graph of my spiritual fitness is hardly a straight line with a steep, positive slope. it probably looks like the peaks of the rocky mountains, and the trend line is shallowly and positively sloped towards ever greater spiritual fitness. that is at least as long as i stay clean.
so anyhow, enough spiritual algebra, the time has come for me to accept this gift of another day in recovery, and go take care of myself. it is after all what is in front of me!

∞ DT ∞