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i do not regret the past, i am not afraid of the future, and i am generally pleased with the present. there are other times when i do lose sights on what the will of a HIGHER POWER happens to be, this morning is not one of those days. this morning i NEED to tell someone a very unpleasant truth and my decision regarding that truth. i have known this since yesterday, and waiting twenty-four hours or so, has given me the opportunity to get guidance on how to do so, with a minimum of damage. it is tough telling someone that their behavior disqualifies them for something, and even tougher having to be the one doing the judging. however, i do have a responsibility and an obligation to honest, forthright and as kind as i possibly can be. how kind can i really be saying your behavior, and your pubic admissions disqualifies you from being of service, at least in this instance.
oh i know i can wrap it up in a bit of spiritual camouflage, as i have done in the past, or i can say do not take this personally but… those behaviors are quite familiar and accessible to me still. my experience lately is that sort of behavior makes me feel dirty, and by trying to be gentle, the point is often missed, flattery and manipulation are also two other routes to "softening the blow," however i know that when someone uses those paths on me, i feel cheap, and wonder why they do not respect me enough to come out say what they mean, point blank and in no uncertain terms.
the solution to my dilemma is to allow myself to express what i need to say, channeling the POWER that has put this on heart and leave the results up to that same POWER. life is far to precious to squander the minutes i have been given today on worry and what iffing myself into a tizzy. so off to the showers and time to get a bit more work accomplished.

∞ DT ∞