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i will start where i am and practice. what do i have to whine about this morning... well for one, an early morning phone call just before it was time for my honey to get up and get to work, shattered my ability to sleep in to at least dawn, so i have quite the start to my work day under my belt. i can also cut some cheese to compliment that fine whine if you desire, or i can move into what is on my mind and in my heart this morning. it is what it is and this morning i will be off working out in fifteen minutes and then see how much more i can accomplish before i get to one of my new weekly meetings this evening.
so this whole prayer gig is quite a trip, especially when i do not believe in a an anthropomorphic HIGHER POWER. that does not however, deter me from asking anyhow. that is what i have come to regard prayer as, an asking for something from that HIGHER POWER, no matter what IT is, looks like or what attributes IT may or may not possess. what i have come to learn that ask as i may, i very rarely get what i want, IN THE MANNER THAT I MOST DESIRE. that last part ids the important part of that statement and i need to say that, in case the all caps case was not emphasis enough. it is true that i get what i need, and most of my needs are starting to align with my wants. yes it would be nice to win POWERBALL, but what i seem to get, is more work, and i am not suddenly struck rich. so when i asked for a healthy full life, i got the desire to start a running routine and to become a good patient. when i asked for relationships i got a dawg, sponsees, and then finally when i was spiritually fit enough a significant other. when i ask for clarity, i generally get the sudden urge to call my sponsor or another trusted and respected member of the fellowship. and so it goes on and on, example after example, showing that i always get what i ask for in prayer.
a cynic may say, that i am choosing to interpret coincidental events in such a way as to show that they are related. that cynic may be correct, this morning i choose to allow the rose-colored glasses to be put on. at least in this respect. it goes to the example in the reading, i asked, in prayer to stay clean, way back in my early recovery, and was given the tools i needed way back when to so, even through the trauma that was my life and that is early recovery. so let the cynic's tongue wag, for me, just for today, i choose to walk away from that view of life and prayer and move into a world that is truly beyond my comprehension, where the mundane, the profane and the divine, all have their part to play in my life today.
as promised it is time to hit the streets and pound away some of those empty calories i though i so needed to consume yesterday. it is a great day to be clean.

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