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over time, however, i begin to feel **a part of** rather than **apart from.** okay take two! what a really weird day and week this has been, i still got a bunch of stuff accomplished, i still got a chance to least phone this in, and i still get a chance to celebrate a clean date anniversary with a sponsee before getting into the whole hotel convention gig. before i go any further:

Congrats on FOUR YEARS Clean RUSSELL

so that completes this business part of my blog, now another announcement from my sponsor: WRITE YOUR STEP DAMMIT!
at least that is what i heard last night when i was driving home form the meeting over in Boulder. as that was being shouted into my head, i also finally saw my path to exactly that. the writing assignment i have been noodling around in my head, was what would the face of sanity look like for me today. after this past week and all the stuff going on between my ears, i have many clues, and perhaps as the weekend progresses i might even get a chance to write it down, if not Sunday will have its task at hand.
so the relief of loneliness by allowing myself to become a part of the fellowship. honestly, there are times that i am grateful that i keep a bit of distance between myself and the fellowship in general. and there are times, when i regret that behavior. today, i am beginning to wish for a bit more, as i will be thrust upon a stage starting tomorrow and i am hopeful i can perform up to my own expectations, which of course are much higher than the fellowship in general. be that as it may, it will be the path to my SECOND STEP and i will do my best to be a part of, over the next 4 days. it is after all the best i can do right here and right now, so off to the errand train i go, grateful for the ability to let go once again.

∞ DT ∞