or at least do my best. the catch here is promptly, what exactly does that mean? if i do catch my wrong until hours, days even weeks after the fact, how can that possibly be prompt? the loophole, for me, is that when i stumble across something way after the event, i have a tendency to put it off, after all, the object of my wrongs has probably already forgotten about it. prompt, according to this loophole means in proximity to the event. what i think prompt means in reality, is proximity to the discovery of the wrong and then it is the next opportunity i get to own my mistakes. that is the second loophole for me, the whole opportunity bit. i can say that living in FAITH, that the POWER that fuels my recovery will present the perfect opportunity and wait for it to arise in a natural manner. once again, going against the intent of what i think STEP 10 is all about. it is true, most of the time the wrongs i NEED to admit will occur with those interact with on a daily basis, so those natural opportunities will come up all the time. it is those wrongs i commit to those i see occasionally, or even will never see again that is the tricky part. i do not live in the 19th century, so i do have the means to make those opportunities occur. a phone call, e-mail or text message may suffice to admit where i was wrong to those i know. the random acts of wrongness? well the TENTH STEP gives me the means to correct my behavior and live in a manner of living where they occur much else.
anyhow, i do have a bunch of work to get done this morning, regardless of how much i have already accomplished. so i will end this with the thought that i am grateful i have the means to discover where i stray from the straight and narrow, the most importantly the means to correct those transgressions, in as close to real-time as possible. the loopholes? just further evidence that i am far from cured and that i MUST keep doing what i have been taught to do, it is after, all a great day to be clean.
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