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greater concord with the world that surrounds me, is certainly an admirable goal on any given day, as a human being and especially as an addict choosing to live a program of recovery. as much as i ascribe to that concept and certainly do my best to live up to it, i ofttimes stumble and fall back into over-entitled, self-obsessed, self-will. there is certainly a cure for that and as the reading suggested that i use a simple question to determine IF i need to alter the direction i am going, at any given moment. since i am not really a “GOD” sort of person, trying to figure out whether or not i am living in GOD's will or not, may be problematic. my test is the actions and reactions of those around me and the feeling i get in my “gut” when i am acting shady. the nice part about relying on observations and being present, is that i no longer have to put this sort of enlightenment into the supernatural or divine bucket, it simply just is.
this morning i had “planned” on working from home, BUT had left the door open for my weekly commute. when i checked the drive time at 6:00 AM it was 88 minutes, which is one and half times longer than normal. i let my boss know that my default was to work from home today, unless those who forecast the weather were wrong. it may not be as bad as they predicted, but traffic is much worse for the amount of snow we did get. when i peeked out my window i was willing to drive, until i saw that there was already back-ups beyond normal for that early in the morning.
i do have to get moving, figuratively and literally into my day. a drive to the Rec Center is next on my hit parade, after a frustrating morning trying to request software for my work computer. i have seven days to get that upgrade done, i will be interested to see how slow these wheels of bureaucracy turn. yes it is a good day to look at my actions and change them as needed, so i do not need to take the corrective part of the TENTH STEP, as i hate to admit i am wrong, made a mistake or hurt someone. 😉

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