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Sat, Feb 22, 2014 08:38:58 AM
∏ with a growing awareness of what the will of the POWER ∏
posted: Sat, Feb 22, 2014 08:38:58 AM
that fuels my recovery happens to be, i am less likely to repeat living in self-will.
i certainly find the notion of using a daily TENTH STEP as the means to reconcile, my self-will, my true will and the will of the POWER that fuels my recovery. i can even see the reason for doing it at the end of my day, rather than any other time as that is when the events of the day are the freshest in my mind. as my friend Rebecca has spoke of in the past, the TENTH STEP, is my vehicle for resolving the cognitive dissonance, i have when i live in self-will, ungrateful for what others go out of their way to do for me, and believing i am entitled to whatever the fVck i think i want, be it money, love or the respect of my peers, i am apt to need a bit of correction. to go through my life, day in and day out living in a world consumed by self-will, is not only destructive to my relationships, but to my well-being as well. there really is not a whole lot more here. any apologies i think i am owed is part of that entitlement thinking., any amends or corrections from others, is just self-will run riot. the reading speaks to looking at my behaviors, feelings and attitudes and seeing how i contributed to those situations that i feel were a burden, or onerous and vexatious to me. i can be a victim for as long as i desire, but is that really my own true will, or even the will of the POWER that fuels my recovery? what i am hearing as i approach the end of this, is not only NO but HELL NO and do not ever ask again. no in this sense, my own true will, is to stand-up for myself or just walk away, as in these relationships i will never be whole, healthy or even happy.
where do i go with that knowledge, well off to the showers and into my day. not off in to the sunset nor out into the world with a flamethrower and Molotov cocktails ready to avenge the slightest wrong. nope, i will go out into today, secure in the knowledge that my feelings are not wrong and i am okay, just as i am today. it is a good day to be more than i was yesterday!
i certainly find the notion of using a daily TENTH STEP as the means to reconcile, my self-will, my true will and the will of the POWER that fuels my recovery. i can even see the reason for doing it at the end of my day, rather than any other time as that is when the events of the day are the freshest in my mind. as my friend Rebecca has spoke of in the past, the TENTH STEP, is my vehicle for resolving the cognitive dissonance, i have when i live in self-will, ungrateful for what others go out of their way to do for me, and believing i am entitled to whatever the fVck i think i want, be it money, love or the respect of my peers, i am apt to need a bit of correction. to go through my life, day in and day out living in a world consumed by self-will, is not only destructive to my relationships, but to my well-being as well. there really is not a whole lot more here. any apologies i think i am owed is part of that entitlement thinking., any amends or corrections from others, is just self-will run riot. the reading speaks to looking at my behaviors, feelings and attitudes and seeing how i contributed to those situations that i feel were a burden, or onerous and vexatious to me. i can be a victim for as long as i desire, but is that really my own true will, or even the will of the POWER that fuels my recovery? what i am hearing as i approach the end of this, is not only NO but HELL NO and do not ever ask again. no in this sense, my own true will, is to stand-up for myself or just walk away, as in these relationships i will never be whole, healthy or even happy.
where do i go with that knowledge, well off to the showers and into my day. not off in to the sunset nor out into the world with a flamethrower and Molotov cocktails ready to avenge the slightest wrong. nope, i will go out into today, secure in the knowledge that my feelings are not wrong and i am okay, just as i am today. it is a good day to be more than i was yesterday!
∞ DT ∞
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While the author is a member of a 12 Step recovery fellowship, these writings are not intended to endorse or express the published wisdom of any fellowship.
These writings are not meant to be socially or politically correct, and if you take issue with any opinions expressed, please seek the guidance of someone wiser than me.
Another Look!
↔ my will -- God’s will ↔ 319 words ➥ Tuesday, February 22, 2005 by: donnotα discovering the inconsistencies between my behavior and my values α 511 words ➥ Wednesday, February 22, 2006 by: donnot
¿ i may discover inconsistencies between my behavior and my values. i have been acting on my own will, ¿ 451 words ➥ Thursday, February 22, 2007 by: donnot
∞ i have found that the more i live in harmony with the will of my HIGHER POWER, the greater the harmony in my life. ∞ 483 words ➥ Friday, February 22, 2008 by: donnot
∞ in many cases, i find that my actions have been in tune with the will … 524 words ➥ Sunday, February 22, 2009 by: donnot
∞ in my life, i have found, that the more i live in harmony ∞ 765 words ➥ Monday, February 22, 2010 by: donnot
« i continue to take personal inventory and when i am wrong promptly admit it » 398 words ➥ Tuesday, February 22, 2011 by: donnot
≈ when i am acting on my own will and not that ≈ 356 words ➥ Wednesday, February 22, 2012 by: donnot
⇑ i wish to live in harmony with my world. ⇑ 472 words ➥ Friday, February 22, 2013 by: donnot
¤ i am more likely to live in greater concord ¤ 697 words ➥ Sunday, February 22, 2015 by: donnot
↳ GOD*s will, ≀ 697 words ➥ Monday, February 22, 2016 by: donnot
✫ uncovering the inconsistencies ✬ 873 words ➥ Wednesday, February 22, 2017 by: donnot
🎜 in tune 🎝 799 words ➥ Thursday, February 22, 2018 by: donnot
💫 any dissonance 💫 571 words ➥ Friday, February 22, 2019 by: donnot
🔬 being in tune 🔬 583 words ➥ Saturday, February 22, 2020 by: donnot
📉 dissonance 📈 596 words ➥ Monday, February 22, 2021 by: donnot
🎥 measuring each 🎦 353 words ➥ Tuesday, February 22, 2022 by: donnot
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☯ The Tao that can be spoken is not the eternal Tao ☯
by Lao-Tse
Translated by James Legge
Book 2
1) My words are very easy to know, and very easy to practise; but
there is no one in the world who is able to know and able to practise
them.