β sharing my secrets?? β
Posted: Fri, Feb 25, 2005 06:53:31 AM
...my addict self screams not only NO but HELL NO and NEVER ASK AGAIN!
BUT and it is a big one, the part of me that wants recovery and desires freedom from active addiction says of course, what could be more simple, after all we are only as sick as our secrets.
so inside of me i have two extreme viewpoints that both sound attractive to me, each has its advantages and consequences.
if i hold my secrets close to my chest, i can save face, keep my distance and be self-sufficient. i do not have to practice any spiritual principles like FAITH and TRUST and i probably will get to use again.
if i share my secrets with those in the rooms, my sponsors and my close-mouthed friends, i earn self-respect and get to practice some spiritual principles in the safety of the loving fellowship that has given me this new life. i get to recover and possibly i will not use again today.
well today i choose recovery, so does that mean i am about to share my dirty little secrets with the world.
NO WAY!
i do not have that much recovery yet, but i will share them with my sponsor and maybe at the next meeting i attend.
see you there!
∞ DT ∞
BUT and it is a big one, the part of me that wants recovery and desires freedom from active addiction says of course, what could be more simple, after all we are only as sick as our secrets.
so inside of me i have two extreme viewpoints that both sound attractive to me, each has its advantages and consequences.
if i hold my secrets close to my chest, i can save face, keep my distance and be self-sufficient. i do not have to practice any spiritual principles like FAITH and TRUST and i probably will get to use again.
if i share my secrets with those in the rooms, my sponsors and my close-mouthed friends, i earn self-respect and get to practice some spiritual principles in the safety of the loving fellowship that has given me this new life. i get to recover and possibly i will not use again today.
HMMMMMMMMMMMMrecovery or addiction, what a choice???
well today i choose recovery, so does that mean i am about to share my dirty little secrets with the world.
NO WAY!
i do not have that much recovery yet, but i will share them with my sponsor and maybe at the next meeting i attend.
see you there!
∞ DT ∞