ฦ one of the miracles of recovery is the recognition of myself ฦ
Posted: Sun, Jul 24, 2011 06:07:56 PM
complete with assets and liabilities!
well six hundred miles and 11 hours after i read and meditated on Just for Tomorrow, i am finally ready to sit down and write about the reading that is Just For today.
this reading, as always smacks me right between the eyes when i read it, as it fits me like the glove OJ tried on in front of Marcia Clark, way back when, tighter than my skin and just as uncomfortable. as much as i grow, as much as i change, as much as i learn about who i really am, there is always more work to do in this respect. i still feel the need from time to time, to be someone, anyone, other than who i am, and i find myself being capable of still doing that with very little effort. one of the the bright ideas that popped into my head over the weekend, that somehow, someway, i had to get back into being part of the regional delegate team again. that in and of itself is not a bad idea, perhaps someday, the part was and was not because i had a desire to serve that suddenly popped into my head, because i thought i could do it better than the current team. after all…
what does that have to do with the topic at hand? i left regional service in all forms, because i was not happy about the person i was in that service arena. yes there has been some time and some step work, BUT now that i examine the entire idea, not nearly enough.
where do i go from here? well i allow the POWER that fuels my recovery to care for my ENTIRE will and life, and be present for the opportunities that care will bring. so off to work and a meeting and then a long chillax at mi casa!
well six hundred miles and 11 hours after i read and meditated on Just for Tomorrow, i am finally ready to sit down and write about the reading that is Just For today.
this reading, as always smacks me right between the eyes when i read it, as it fits me like the glove OJ tried on in front of Marcia Clark, way back when, tighter than my skin and just as uncomfortable. as much as i grow, as much as i change, as much as i learn about who i really am, there is always more work to do in this respect. i still feel the need from time to time, to be someone, anyone, other than who i am, and i find myself being capable of still doing that with very little effort. one of the the bright ideas that popped into my head over the weekend, that somehow, someway, i had to get back into being part of the regional delegate team again. that in and of itself is not a bad idea, perhaps someday, the part was and was not because i had a desire to serve that suddenly popped into my head, because i thought i could do it better than the current team. after all…
what does that have to do with the topic at hand? i left regional service in all forms, because i was not happy about the person i was in that service arena. yes there has been some time and some step work, BUT now that i examine the entire idea, not nearly enough.
where do i go from here? well i allow the POWER that fuels my recovery to care for my ENTIRE will and life, and be present for the opportunities that care will bring. so off to work and a meeting and then a long chillax at mi casa!
∞ DT ∞