ฮฑ hiding behind the masks ฯ
Posted: Sun, Jul 24, 2005 09:54:41 AM
here i am doing service, trying to figure out who i really am. am i really showing my real face or am i just people pleasing?
i did not really think that i would be writing this today, so i thought i could skate through today without thinking too much about this topic.
but alas, i got on-line and my own commitment to writing this screamed louder than my disease about ignoring my thoughts.
so i do understand about hiding behind a façade so no one could ever see who i was and as a result could hurt me. these days i am not any more comfortable about being open with who i am, to every one i happen to run across in my daily life, but i am learning that although i am not comfortable with being open, i do see the benefit in all of my relationships.
so am i better at being open? YES! am i throwing away my masks?? MOST OF THEM!! will i continue to make progress in showing who i am, instead of showing who i want to be?? YES!
each day i get a bit better and more comfortable being and showing who i am and as a result am building my self-esteem day by day.
∞ DT ∞
i did not really think that i would be writing this today, so i thought i could skate through today without thinking too much about this topic.
but alas, i got on-line and my own commitment to writing this screamed louder than my disease about ignoring my thoughts.
so i do understand about hiding behind a façade so no one could ever see who i was and as a result could hurt me. these days i am not any more comfortable about being open with who i am, to every one i happen to run across in my daily life, but i am learning that although i am not comfortable with being open, i do see the benefit in all of my relationships.
so am i better at being open? YES! am i throwing away my masks?? MOST OF THEM!! will i continue to make progress in showing who i am, instead of showing who i want to be?? YES!
each day i get a bit better and more comfortable being and showing who i am and as a result am building my self-esteem day by day.
∞ DT ∞