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I cannot recover on my own. I need the members of the fellowship and, ABOVE ALL, I need a loving HIGHER POWER that is stronger than the addict within me.
so my one of the issues i had yesterday has been resolved, i shared about my dilemma and an addict, who is fast becoming a trusted friend, gave me some advice that i now see was the voice of the POWER that fuels my recovery, that i am willing to follow today. having just a bit of of humility, deflated my ego enough to take some direction and do the next right thing, which means i fill out the paper work and take the offer that is now on the table. i get it today, that all i have to do is ask, and i WILL get the answers i seek. yes it is tough to believe that there is something beyond my understanding,. much less that i am not an independent force that can act just like i want to and not suffer the consequences of my decisions. this was my problem from the start. and it still creeps in to my active life, more often than i really want to admit. my favorite line can be “I KNOW!”
as i was listening this morning to the voice within, i realize i knew the answer, i was just choosing not to hear it. i had stepped out oh humility and moved into self-will, believing that the offers were just going to keep rolling in, and they may, BUT today, i am certain that the path before me, is to take what is being offered. most importantly, be grateful that i will not have any missed paychecks nor will i have to worry about WHEN that next paycheck will arrive. i am being cared for, and i i WILL always get what i need. the only caveat here is that i have to listen to what i am being told, especially IF i ask for an answer.
so the answer i seem to be getting today, is that i am not supposed to buy a 4G modem for my net book, as there is now way around the data entry error i made yesterday. i love it, for the protection of AT&T they cannot let me update the order i entered yesterday unless i provide them with the data entry error i made. i mean talk about a catch-22 and what a pile of steaming horsesh!t. i could not add the service to my current account, and now i cannot get new service unless i go through the whole painful process again! i am more than a little pissed off and instead of whining and moaning any more, i do believe i will fill out my paperwork, jump in the shower and move forward with my day. i can always order from SPRINT later and that may be just what i will do!
with that in mind, i will let go and do the next right thing! it is after all a good day to be clean.

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