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i did not understand how **lowliness and subservience** applied to recovery. and based on my experience, i am not the only addict who has this problem. ironically, when i came to recovery, i already felt that i was the lowest form of life, and humble looked like it was going to be a piece of cake. although i was and still can be arrogant and egotistical, all of that was a cover for what i really felt about myself. learning that i am equal to everyone else in the world, at least in the human sense, was what coming to humility ended-up being for me. sure i am not a car mechanic, nor am i doctor, a lawyer or a whole lot of other things, i am however a talented application developer and another addict in recovery. so learning who i am and where i really stand in the human community, in my recovery community and in my circle of friends, family and peers, has become a lifelong journey.
so anyhow, before i get kicked off because my computer decides it is time to reboot, i will say, i am learning that humility is more than just knowing, for me, it is a development of a sense that is beyond description, but one whose presence i am starting to feel and access on a daily basis. i have to run, but it is a great day to learn how to practice a bit of humility and move forward into the next phase of my journey.

∞ DT ∞