∞ i will never attain a state of perfect humility. ∞
Posted: Mon, Nov 6, 2006 07:15:50 AM
but i can certainly strive to honestly admit my faults, accept my assets, and rely on my Higher Power as a source of strength.
DAMMIT, i want to be perfectly everything, after all it was you guys that made me this less than perfect human being -- if you would have asked me, i would have told you that i was just perfect the way i was. that is way back when i was first coming to think that maybe i needed a program.
so here i sit today a few thousand days later, realizing how far off the mark of perfect humility i really am. and you know what? i am really okay with that today. i am not always okay with that inconvenient fact, in fact, more times than not, i use that little factoid as a weapon against myself. it is one of the tools the part of me i call my disease whips out and flogs me with, when i start to really feel good about who i am, and begin to accept that i am more than just alright, precisely the way i am at this very minute.
so yes i am not perfect, and yes i probably will never be perfectly humble, i am far to human for that to happen. BUT i can be who i am today and accept that without reservations. and who might that be you ask? well, an addict in recovery, doing the best he can to let go of the process and become what ever his HIGHER POWER has envisioned for him to be.
DAMMIT, i want to be perfectly everything, after all it was you guys that made me this less than perfect human being -- if you would have asked me, i would have told you that i was just perfect the way i was. that is way back when i was first coming to think that maybe i needed a program.
so here i sit today a few thousand days later, realizing how far off the mark of perfect humility i really am. and you know what? i am really okay with that today. i am not always okay with that inconvenient fact, in fact, more times than not, i use that little factoid as a weapon against myself. it is one of the tools the part of me i call my disease whips out and flogs me with, when i start to really feel good about who i am, and begin to accept that i am more than just alright, precisely the way i am at this very minute.
so yes i am not perfect, and yes i probably will never be perfectly humble, i am far to human for that to happen. BUT i can be who i am today and accept that without reservations. and who might that be you ask? well, an addict in recovery, doing the best he can to let go of the process and become what ever his HIGHER POWER has envisioned for him to be.
∞ DT ∞