🤓 knowing 🤓
Posted: Wed, Nov 6, 2024 08:48:05 AM
-- really knowing -- myself, is a crucial element of recovery. okay, i am more than a bit scattered after the election results and i have to HOPE, that the worst of what may come, will not. i KNOW that my FEAR of going backwards to a racist and misogynistic society may be unfounded regardless of who happens to be in power for the next four years, may be an overreaction. i just have to keep carrying on with living my life and take what comes. i KNOW that i am not going to use to escape that fear and i also know that i will keep up the fight against the Puritan homophobes that may feel empowered to attempt to remake society in their image. this too shall pass, and i hope i survive it.
moving into the topic of my source material, honest self-evaluation, i can see that after years, nay decades, of being who i was not, this journey into finding out who i am has been more than a bit interesting. as i live each day as the most genuine self that i able to do, i find out all sorts of stuff that i may have once known but forgot under the weight of denial that was the lie i told myself for so long. i also see that under that thin-skinned snowflake cynic there is a heavyweight champion just waiting to get out and live a life worth living. it is not as if i have many parts, well not any more, as the final chunks of my fractured personality start to come together into something that is greater than the sum of those parts.
anyhow, it is time to get showered off and back to work. life is good today, even when the darkness of toxic conservatism is spreading across the world. i will continue to resist and do my part to keep at least my part of the world as welcoming, warm and safe for all, as i possibly can, just for today.
moving into the topic of my source material, honest self-evaluation, i can see that after years, nay decades, of being who i was not, this journey into finding out who i am has been more than a bit interesting. as i live each day as the most genuine self that i able to do, i find out all sorts of stuff that i may have once known but forgot under the weight of denial that was the lie i told myself for so long. i also see that under that thin-skinned snowflake cynic there is a heavyweight champion just waiting to get out and live a life worth living. it is not as if i have many parts, well not any more, as the final chunks of my fractured personality start to come together into something that is greater than the sum of those parts.
anyhow, it is time to get showered off and back to work. life is good today, even when the darkness of toxic conservatism is spreading across the world. i will continue to resist and do my part to keep at least my part of the world as welcoming, warm and safe for all, as i possibly can, just for today.
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