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for some reason lately i have been thinking about the person i was when i got here and the chain of events that led to my final acceptance that i was an addict and NEEDED a way to live. part of what is going on is the continual relapse cycle of one sponsee and another asking very pointed questions about the chain of events over the last 18 months of my active addiction that brought me to my first surrender to the principles of recovery.
i know that i no longer have to be ashamed of being an addict nor do i have to carry the shame of my behaviors in the past. that is not what i am about today. i realize that taking a brief vacation in my past probably is not a bad thing and that when asked about what and who i was, i need to answer honestly and without hesitation. i also know that ‘living’ my past again is not a healthy. so the JFT reading this morning, was just what i needed to read. in this phase of my recovery i can live in the HERE and NOW and be satisfied that i have cleaned-up the damage i did those many years ago, am willing to clean-up any that i discover as i continue the process of recovery and am trying to live in such a manner that i reduce the damage i do today. i am more than willing to once again "pack up my bags and move into the present, filled with hope."
JUST FOR TODAY!
∞ DT ∞