โ i am internalizing the will of the POWER that fuels my recovery โ
Posted: Thu, Mar 29, 2012 12:50:30 PM
in fact, THAT will has become my own true will for myself.
well most of the time anyhow. my will, self or true3, would have posted this on the bus ride this morning and due to the poor quality of data service, i now have to take a lunch and write it away from work. it juts has been one of those sort of days, where what i wanted or want to do is blocked by events and other divers outside of my control. what is my take away from my frustrating morning? well, more than likely, i do not have a clue as to what i NEED nor what is my true will for myself, on this particular day. i thought it might just be a nice bus ride to work, a bit of musing about a spiritual topic, some very familiar tasks and lunch at my desk, followed by more stuff and a bus ride home. well that is not quite how things turned out, and as i look at my feelings and my reactions i can see that i NEED to restart my day, rest my expectations and accept that is the way it is today. even 1130 in the morning is not too late, and my true will? well that is a mystery right now, except that i need to allow myself to be okay with how things are right now and move on.
and that is what i will do!
well most of the time anyhow. my will, self or true3, would have posted this on the bus ride this morning and due to the poor quality of data service, i now have to take a lunch and write it away from work. it juts has been one of those sort of days, where what i wanted or want to do is blocked by events and other divers outside of my control. what is my take away from my frustrating morning? well, more than likely, i do not have a clue as to what i NEED nor what is my true will for myself, on this particular day. i thought it might just be a nice bus ride to work, a bit of musing about a spiritual topic, some very familiar tasks and lunch at my desk, followed by more stuff and a bus ride home. well that is not quite how things turned out, and as i look at my feelings and my reactions i can see that i NEED to restart my day, rest my expectations and accept that is the way it is today. even 1130 in the morning is not too late, and my true will? well that is a mystery right now, except that i need to allow myself to be okay with how things are right now and move on.
and that is what i will do!
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