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i was sorely tempted to take a peek at what i wrote a year ago on this topic so i could copy the juicy bits and rework them into what sounded like a totally different bog. but then i thought about what the dang reading talked about in regards to getting back too much change. i would know whether anyone else went back and checked or not. of course i could dismiss anyone‘s by saying that i just guess that two years in a row i was in almost an identical space when i read the reading. but as my values change, it also seems my life changes too. what i found acceptable nine years ago, or five years ago or one year ago, or even yesterday, i do not find acceptable today. and i am not talking about the world around me! no i am talking about the world within. i am talking about making my behaviors match my values, not making my values match my behavior. i lived in the value matching mode for far to long and have probably forfeited the right to rationalize and justify my behaviors.
so what exactly HP‘s will for me today?? well for one. it is for me to decide to stay clean just one more day. probably it is to talk to my new client and get on track with assignments for him. definitely meet with a sponsee and discuss tradition two this afternoon. and more than likely for me to demonstrate love, concern and empathy for all those who happen to cross my path today!
thinking back over the past sixty days, i can see what my sponsor Carlos was nattering on and on about. since i was unwilling to wake-up and do the will of my HIGHER POWER, events were set in motion to force me to internalize HP‘s will and finally understand my OWN TRUE WILL. i am allowed to succeed, if i allow myself to. i am allowed to grow in all areas of my life, if i let go. and i can be more of a person than i ever was. all of this is possible when i finally realize resistance is futile and i will be assimilated into HP‘s will, by doing what i need to do to stay clean today!

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