¡ as a result of years of active addiction ¡
Posted: Mon, May 28, 2012 07:00:47 AM
i could not be myself because i did not know who i was anymore. as a result of staying clean, living a program of active recovery that includes step work, i am getting the ability to be myself, because i am starting to KNOW who i am.
as i sit here this morning, thinking about things i need to do, before i head over to BOULDER as well as how things went yesterday, i have a notion or two about who i am. i am certainly not some sort of cookie-cutter recovery joe kind of guy, and when others suggest that i am, it really irks the living sh!t out of me. two addicts at the meeting yesterday, shared about who i should share and while they are certainly entitled to their opinion, i almost smacked them down hard and with extreme prejudice. the fact that i walked away, and let go go it, until right now, is a testimony to the program of this program and how i works it my life. in fact, it was not until i started the juices flowing on this exercise, that i even remembered why i left the meeting with a sort of less than, ripped-off feeling. the fact that i felt disrespected with by the attendance of family members did not make me feel any better, but all of that is in the past, today i am looking forward to some fun, some work and some running my butt off, quite literally.
with that in mind, i will sign-off and the next time you see me, i will have completed 10k and be ready for something entirely different.
as i sit here this morning, thinking about things i need to do, before i head over to BOULDER as well as how things went yesterday, i have a notion or two about who i am. i am certainly not some sort of cookie-cutter recovery joe kind of guy, and when others suggest that i am, it really irks the living sh!t out of me. two addicts at the meeting yesterday, shared about who i should share and while they are certainly entitled to their opinion, i almost smacked them down hard and with extreme prejudice. the fact that i walked away, and let go go it, until right now, is a testimony to the program of this program and how i works it my life. in fact, it was not until i started the juices flowing on this exercise, that i even remembered why i left the meeting with a sort of less than, ripped-off feeling. the fact that i felt disrespected with by the attendance of family members did not make me feel any better, but all of that is in the past, today i am looking forward to some fun, some work and some running my butt off, quite literally.
with that in mind, i will sign-off and the next time you see me, i will have completed 10k and be ready for something entirely different.
∞ DT ∞