& i want to do things for the right reason ,
Posted: Sun, Jun 10, 2012 06:19:36 AM
not just for my personal benefit.
TAKE TWO
as i was saying before operator error crept in and wiped out my musings:
Annoy a Conservative
Do the next right thing, for NO reason at all.
-- in response to a bumper sticker that i a=saw yesterday, stating how a one could annoy liberal.
as a political outsider, by choice, i find all the distractions of the hysterical and vile partisan battles, more than a bit tiring and hope that they keep politicians and their corporate masters from really destroying my life.
but, enough about all of that, as today i have no power over that. it is much like what discovered about life in general, back in those early days of my recovery. that i am powerless and my life is unmanageable BECAUSE of the part of me i call addiction. before getting clean, anyone who sat to the “right” of me politically, was in for a brutal and harsh polemic about how evil their political views were. since i had to be right, and of course at least in my own mind, i was ALWAYS right, i would badger, bully and generally beat the recalcitrant party intro intellectual submission. my motives of such behavior? who knows. today when it comes to stuff like being right and wrong about matters that really do not matter, i can observe and walk away. there still may be a part of me, who wants to educate the world as to the evils inherent in the current manifestations of the political world, but when it comes down to doing the next right thing, that seems way at the bottom of my priority list. in fact, so low, that i hardly even engage in political thought much, except when i see ignorance being displayed in public for all to see.
this morning, i do have places to go and a specific person to see. i do this, not out of some sense of altruism BUT for a very selfish reason, as i can only keep what i have by giving it away. i want to keep my recovery and the sense of belonging to this world that i have been given, so i spend one Sunday a month helping another find their way into this life i have been given. it is nice when my selfish motives and doing the next right thing align so well. which means it is time to swig that last swig of coffee, jump in the shower, grab a stick and start heading on down south.
after that, well perhaps it will just be doing the next right thing,m without any personal motives in the way, or not!
TAKE TWO
as i was saying before operator error crept in and wiped out my musings:
Annoy a Conservative
Do the next right thing, for NO reason at all.
-- in response to a bumper sticker that i a=saw yesterday, stating how a one could annoy liberal.
as a political outsider, by choice, i find all the distractions of the hysterical and vile partisan battles, more than a bit tiring and hope that they keep politicians and their corporate masters from really destroying my life.
but, enough about all of that, as today i have no power over that. it is much like what discovered about life in general, back in those early days of my recovery. that i am powerless and my life is unmanageable BECAUSE of the part of me i call addiction. before getting clean, anyone who sat to the “right” of me politically, was in for a brutal and harsh polemic about how evil their political views were. since i had to be right, and of course at least in my own mind, i was ALWAYS right, i would badger, bully and generally beat the recalcitrant party intro intellectual submission. my motives of such behavior? who knows. today when it comes to stuff like being right and wrong about matters that really do not matter, i can observe and walk away. there still may be a part of me, who wants to educate the world as to the evils inherent in the current manifestations of the political world, but when it comes down to doing the next right thing, that seems way at the bottom of my priority list. in fact, so low, that i hardly even engage in political thought much, except when i see ignorance being displayed in public for all to see.
this morning, i do have places to go and a specific person to see. i do this, not out of some sense of altruism BUT for a very selfish reason, as i can only keep what i have by giving it away. i want to keep my recovery and the sense of belonging to this world that i have been given, so i spend one Sunday a month helping another find their way into this life i have been given. it is nice when my selfish motives and doing the next right thing align so well. which means it is time to swig that last swig of coffee, jump in the shower, grab a stick and start heading on down south.
after that, well perhaps it will just be doing the next right thing,m without any personal motives in the way, or not!
∞ DT ∞