⁄ i know that looking good is NOT enough ⁄
Posted: Sat, Jul 14, 2012 08:49:14 AM
lasting recovery is an inside job. dang it all anyhow, because i am so geared towards looking good, that i can hardly stand it. oh yes, a few days off from my FOURTH STEP and although there would have been a time that my skin was crawling, these past few days have been quiet internally, so although i may not have looked very good, i am feeling GOOD!
so where is all of this going? well now that one of my dirty little secrets is out and about, owning the fact that i WANT to be part of the other 85% of humanity, the so-called normal ones, i can move forward. that this reading happens to come, ironically as hell, the day after i outed that particular fact, makes it even more pertinent to what is going on in my life today. which speaking of today.
anyhow, while being socially acceptable is a nice benefit, and even when there are days, when it more than enough, i know that i can never be a member of the normal ,majority as it is, BECAUSE having the desire to be one of them, automatically makes me ineligible, and that realization really sucks, from time to time. since i slept in late, and i want to get a quick run in this morning, i think i will end this by adding, that just for today, i am glad i am who i am, and when this day ends, my FOURTH STEP will be that much closer to completion as well.
so where is all of this going? well now that one of my dirty little secrets is out and about, owning the fact that i WANT to be part of the other 85% of humanity, the so-called normal ones, i can move forward. that this reading happens to come, ironically as hell, the day after i outed that particular fact, makes it even more pertinent to what is going on in my life today. which speaking of today.
CONGRATS Wayne
on 8 years of “one day at a times!”
anyhow, while being socially acceptable is a nice benefit, and even when there are days, when it more than enough, i know that i can never be a member of the normal ,majority as it is, BECAUSE having the desire to be one of them, automatically makes me ineligible, and that realization really sucks, from time to time. since i slept in late, and i want to get a quick run in this morning, i think i will end this by adding, that just for today, i am glad i am who i am, and when this day ends, my FOURTH STEP will be that much closer to completion as well.
∞ DT ∞