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just by removing the drugs, certainly was part of my early recovery. in fact i **felt** that i looked **normal** enough to set out on self-will and end up in places that were risky to my recovery process. ah, but that is a story i have told before and does not need to be repeated today. what i learned in that little trip of being “normal␅ was that i am till an addict and although sheer willpower kept me clean that night, i lack the strength to fight that battle for any length of time, so i accept the means of recovery that is at my disposal. that being said:

Wayne,
another trip around the sun, CLEAN!
Fifteen (15) years of JFT!
Congrats my friend, keep coming back and coming back clean.

today, as i write this little ditty, i am waiting for AAA to come look at my partner's car, to see why it will not start. whether or not i will make the meeting to help congratulate my peer on his achievement or not, has yet to be revealed. i am on-call and making that meeting will require that i have a car, so if the pager goes off i can rush home to deal with it. i am certainly willing to allow the love of my life, borrow my car and if it is something more than a bad battery, then that will be what i do, as her car will need to be towed to the shop to be taken car of in the morning. all the trappings of a normal life! as the AAA battery technician will be here any minute, i think i will wrap this up and say i may be socially acceptable today, but i am still an addict, every day.

∞ DT ∞