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when i first started coming around, the last thing i wanted to do was go to these meetings the rest of my life. i was only coming here to comply with the what i needed to do to get off probation and had no desire to ever really stop using. oh sure, i knew and used the language so i sounded as if i was serious about this whole gig, but in my mind was the plan to use as soon as i could. i listened to what was being said but, i could not shut-off the derision and sarcasm as other members shared, after all this was for them and would never be for me.
well i have been here a few days and now attend meetings 3 or 4 times a week consistently. there are days when i cannot shut down my racing mind and do not hear what is being said. there are days when i am tired and am unable to hear what is being said, and there are days when i am just stubborn and will not hear what is being shared, but i still go!
am i content when i think that i have to do this the rest of my life? NO WAY, but i can attend today‘s meeting JUST FOR TODAY and go with that! do i believe that i am in the presence of spiritual giants whose every word is dripping with prosaic wisdom? NOT HARDLY, but i never know which of my fellow members will say the words i need to hear today. so all i do, is do my best to open my mind, listen with my ears, hear with my heart and practice the FAITH that something at today‘s meeting will be what i need and desire today!
∞ DT ∞