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as a stepping-stone to healing through the Twelve Steps. that has not always been the case, in the end of active addiction and certainly in those early years of recovery, remorse was among the instruments of torture i used to keep myself down and down-trodden. each instance built the case of what a fVcking bad person i was, and if i was such a bad person, what was the purpose of staying clean. after all, a person as bad as i was, will never have the ability to change. those days, are gratefully gone, and i GET to use remorse as a tool, to move forward in my program.
as to what is going on inside of me? well, i am not remorseful for anything i have written here, even though i often use this a bully pulpit of sorts. even though i went off on a very specific subset of people yesterday, i am not anti-Christian or anything else, except for maybe anti-bigot, anti-intolerant and certainly against anyone who believes that institutionalizing discrimination under the guise of religious freedom, is a good idea. it must be very tough to be on the wrong side of history, when you have been in power forever, or so it would seem. attitudes change, as history points out time and again. owning another human being, was once something many “Christian s” did with no remorse, and yet it certainly was against all of what their religion teaches them. just because the tide of history is against you, in many social mores, does not mean that your religious bastion is under attack, it just means we are moving beyond you, and you are quite invited to come along, that is if you can get off your fVcking high horse and join the rest of society, remember Jim Crow laws still exist in the South, and soon in Arizona as well. yes you so-called religious freedom law, is worse than Jim Crow, because it is based on a perception, and not a physical attribute. seriously how many of us have 100% foolproof “gay-dar?&8221; what's next, unwed mothers, people with bleached-blonde hair, or maybe eyes of two different colors? oh right, you tried that before, why not try a bit of tolerance and acceptance, that your power as a shaker and mover of society is waning. why not join the rest of us, as we move beyond bigotry, intolerance and hate. you do have a place at that table.
well sorry about a repeat rant, i guess that is still on my mind, as i was one of those. no not a “Christian,” but certainly a person, who shoved his beliefs down the throats of others, regardless of the cost, because being right was more important than trying to learn anything. as the roads are from from ideal this morning it is time to wrap this up and head on over to Boulder, and hopefully as this day progresses i will do nothing that i will need to feel remorseful about, just for today.

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