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trendy psychological cures can only take me so far.
quite the adventure getting this little ditty out. had a whole lot and a shout-out written down, before the wheels left the ground in Denver, and BOOM in a single close of the lid, my thoughts were committed to the bit bucket.
not so this time. i will remember to shut down the app before i close the lid

Derek R, my friend and sponsee
Congrats on 10 years clean, No matter what, you kept coming back.

so my previous attempt of writing this, started being a polemic and a purist rant. that part has not changed, i am a purist at heart, well about my program of recovery that is, but as the sun beats down upon me, and i start to unwind, i am letting go of all that vileness, and getting to a place of oh well.
for me, tacking stuff on to the program of recovery, that i have been given, just makes me think of a shotgun shack, that has had addition, after addition, tacked on, willy-nilly, with very little rhyme, reason or aesthetics. i have discovered all that i need, is right here, passed down by oral tradition of sponsorship and the written body of literature that comprises the collective wisdom of the fellowship tat is my home. that is all that i need, and as was so recently driven home by the overdose of a member who had lots of time “sober,” it can be deadly to someone like me. so the simpler, and more straightforward i make it, the better off i am.
so it has been one long day, as i have been up for over eight hours so i am ready to take a nap as we head on through the desert, however, that looks like a very dim prospect as our ride, is full of some very chatty people. yes, even when i am out of the snow and cold, headed out to the beach, i can find something to whine about, but so it goes.
where was i, oh whining about the yahoos we get the pleasure of being held captive by, for the next three hours, ARGGHHHH
i know of more than one of my peers in recovery, who actually have found that they needed something more . others seem to flit from this and that and somehow they stay clean. so enough, time to be social and pay attention to the party. it is a good day to be clean and the journey south is certainly a reminder of why i want to have another day clean.

∞ DT ∞