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am a lovable person. every time i attempt to write about this topic -> self-love and self-esteem, i am reminded of a character on Saturday Night Live. that character mocked the whole self-help industry starting in the early nineties. the sketches usually started and ended with Stuart Smalley, would look deeply into a mirror, repeating affirmations to himself. the effect of that on my journey to find a bit of self-esteem and to love myself, has been to totally dismiss out of hand anything that smacked of new age, feel good, psycho-babble techniques. removing what i considered garbage from my arsenal to build a bit of self-esteem., left me with no other choice than to dive into the literature of the fellowship that has given me this manner of living and follow the example of my predecessors by working steps and learning to live an active program of recovery. i do not know if my bias delayed me from arriving at that point in my spiritual growth, but in the long run, the esteem and love i have for myself today, has been earned bit by bit.

Derek R,
XX (20) years of Just for today!
Congrats, my friend.

going on and on about my journey, is not what i am about this morning. earning respect for myself by doing this gig day after day, has become a part of who i am and i have no doubt that i may actually have a bit of grace stored up in my “recovery bank.” i am, however, unwilling to stop what has been working and what has allowed me to see myself as worthy of being loved, by myself and by others. as i walk down that path, i see by the closk on the wall that it is time to put this to bed and get out for a workout.

∞ DT ∞