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just does not cut it anymore in my life, much as i would love to have a simple apology fix everything. well i know better today and i suspected that it was the case when i was out there using. i sometimes wish i could simply sweep away my indiscretions with those three words, it would take the responsibility for my actions off of me and eliminate the need for daily inventories and step work.
so in other words, it would allow me to abdicate my responsibility for my recovery and let me become a ‘normie‘ for the first time in my life.
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well maybe not. taking responsibility for my recovery and my behavior is really not that onerous of a task, it just is one of those things that i NEED to do. i do know that when i act responsibly, live my program and make real amends by changing my life that i do feel better and i do develop a sense of self-respect that was sorely lacking when i got here. so i either return to what i was or work on becoming the person that i was always intended to be. the choice today is simple -- follow the narrow, winding path of recovery and allow what needs to happen, happen.
∞ DT ∞