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those halting first steps toward recovery.
so as many of you know yesterday was a day off my beaten path, in fact so off-beat, that my car turned left, instead of right when i got to 119 last night after taking care of my service stuff. today, mysterious as it seemed to me yesterday, i am quite certain, that all that happened, good, bad or indifferent was meant to be, just the way it was and my job was to accept that tiny bit of chaos in my life, embrace it and allow it to go where it would, and i did a dang good job of doing just that.
so that left hand turn, led me to a local meeting, where i saw my peers, whom i had not seen in ten days, due to this and that, and amazingly it all started with a phone call.
today? well today is starting out in the normal rut, and i am grateful for that as well. having a rut, as boring and mundane as it sounds it not that bad of thing. in reality i had a rut when i was in active addiction and encouraged chaos all around me. i was taught quite early ion in my recovery process, that developing and maintaining a “recovery” ritual was something i needed to do, to replace my active addiction rituals, which one may certainly read as “ruts”!
so what does any of this have to do with recovery as a learning to walk metaphor? well of all, the cheesy metaphors that are in that book, this one actually is the least cheesiest. this one actually fits for the most part and could be extended quite easily with a few examples of trying to run, before getting steady on one's feet, etc. today i have to help a friend and a peer find their way on the path. not that they are wandering off into the wilderness, but they are not finding the encouragement they need to walk through a rough patch. ironically this bit of chaos in their life was the result of their own behaviors, and i understand that very well, in fact almost all the chaos in my life today comes from trying to walk, chew gum, play the bassoon and write the great American on-line manifesto, at the same time, to extend the metaphor that started this whole shebang off, with such a kick.
it is time however to move on to my next destination for this morning, gainful employment. and yes i am a member but not a cultist so whether or not you have a blessed day, is up to you!

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