ฮฑ a living twelfth step? ฯ
Posted: Mon, Jul 25, 2005 05:57:23 AM
well maybe. i certainly do not feel like i am living the program this morning. even though i am doing the next right thing i feel as if the world is against me and as a result am angry and frustrated. nothing is going well today and i am nearing the point where i am going to walk away and run away and hide.
do i feel like using??? NO! do i feel like changing the way i feel??? YES!
... so it goes
if i have any hope today, it is that if i continue doing the next right thing, i will get things to work for me and be able to do the work i need to.
so it is back home to do the work i forgot to do last night before i fell asleep and see if i can things working again.
what is my message of experience, strength and hope this morning?? well no matter what i will do my best to live the program and be an example of how to do this recovery gig!
∞ DT ∞
do i feel like using??? NO! do i feel like changing the way i feel??? YES!
... so it goes
if i have any hope today, it is that if i continue doing the next right thing, i will get things to work for me and be able to do the work i need to.
so it is back home to do the work i forgot to do last night before i fell asleep and see if i can things working again.
what is my message of experience, strength and hope this morning?? well no matter what i will do my best to live the program and be an example of how to do this recovery gig!
∞ DT ∞