โ facing forward, looking backwards โ
Posted: Mon, Aug 29, 2005 05:52:16 AM
well this time in my annual cycle i am constantly reminded of the insanity and my self-deception at the very end of my active addiction.
i need this reading to remind me that i have worked all twelve steps and i no longer am the person i was eight years ago. i also need this reading to remind me that the past is just that THE PAST.
the steps, my sponsor and those i trust and respect, continually tell me that although i need to remember those final days, i need not dwell there, nor regret the events that finally made me desperate enough to open my mind to the possibilities that i was an addict and that i needed to find a new way to live.
today after a moment of maudlin introspection, i quickly got excited about my upcoming vacation and the decisions i have made regarding my life after vacation. because of a fellowship that saved my life i have the honor of going to hawaii to celebrate that recovery with ten thousand or so of my fellow travelers. i get to spend an additional week with my girl friend and the best part of it all is that i have already paid most of the expenses in cold hard cash!
all of this is remarkable because when i was using there was no way i could go on any vacations much less one of this magnitude. so i am grateful that i have a path ahead of me that will allow me to do more and be more than i ever imagined.
∞ DT ∞
i need this reading to remind me that i have worked all twelve steps and i no longer am the person i was eight years ago. i also need this reading to remind me that the past is just that THE PAST.
the steps, my sponsor and those i trust and respect, continually tell me that although i need to remember those final days, i need not dwell there, nor regret the events that finally made me desperate enough to open my mind to the possibilities that i was an addict and that i needed to find a new way to live.
today after a moment of maudlin introspection, i quickly got excited about my upcoming vacation and the decisions i have made regarding my life after vacation. because of a fellowship that saved my life i have the honor of going to hawaii to celebrate that recovery with ten thousand or so of my fellow travelers. i get to spend an additional week with my girl friend and the best part of it all is that i have already paid most of the expenses in cold hard cash!
all of this is remarkable because when i was using there was no way i could go on any vacations much less one of this magnitude. so i am grateful that i have a path ahead of me that will allow me to do more and be more than i ever imagined.
∞ DT ∞