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this morning i have been thinking about my secrets, at least those that still remain and letting go of the power they possess over me. going through the clutter of my mind i cannot find any secrets that i have not shared with at least one human being, but like in active addiction no one person holds them all. i would like to think that this is not by design and is a result of changing sponsors more than once along the journey of recovery, but i have a nagging feeling that this may be an unconscious expression of that part of me i call my disease. i also have been discovering secrets that were secrets to my conscious self over the past four weeks and this is more disturbing than no one human knowing all there is to know about me. here i am approaching my eighth anniversary of my clean date and new stuff from my active addiction is being revealed!

KIND OF FREAKS ME OUT!

but i also know that i progress forward along the path i have chosen i will uncover many facts, secrets and figures that i swore i would take to my grave and promptly buried so deep that i ‘ forgot them. ’
so am i willing today to let go of my secrets to one human being? YES! and with that letting go i know that the part of me that i call my disease has that much less power over my life.
∞ DT ∞