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Posted: Tue, Oct 24, 2017 09:03:08 AM
to effectively practice spiritual principles, by taking responsibility for my recovery is an interesting topic. i GOT to travel up the hill last night to my new Monday night meeting and i found myself coming home with a different attitude. i realized that no matter how hard i push, no matter how much i whine, no matter how much i threaten, the HOA is going to move at their glacial pace and i have no power over getting them to move towards approval to meet my needs. it was a valuable lesson, because the anger i feel towards them, was becoming a resentment and the meeting topic was all about resentments and justified or not, i do not need to carry that sort of weight around. the spiritual principle here? surrender, of course. i finally got to the place in my emotional landscape where i could let go, do the next right thing and move forward. my anger was affecting my sleep, my balance and most of all my interactions with all of those around me. everything was a personal affront and nothing was good enough, just for today. there will be a bit of painting in my future today, as well.
i am quite adverse to the phrase “practicing these principles in all my affairs,” as i believe that provide me a loophole. sure, i say, i practiced as well as i could, but i was far from perfect, oh well! no i prefer saying “living these principles in my daily life,” as, at least for me, it leaves very little “wiggle” room when i choose to review my day with a daily inventory. the fact that i was building up a major resentment, justified or not, was weighing me down and when i finally came to the place where i could release it, by taking responsibility for who and what i am, i entered a place of acceptance and serenity. well maybe not total acceptance but certainly a whole lot more than i had, before taking my journey up the hill. this morning, i am all about taking care of doing the next right thing, which happens to be, wrapping this little exercise up, taking yet another meeting and being present for my current employer. yes, i will be painting samples on the house in a bit and yes, i am impatiently waiting to hear from the company that i did my tryout for on Thursday, but all in all, i can let go, and allow myself the freedom to be okay with what i have, just for right now.
i am quite adverse to the phrase “practicing these principles in all my affairs,” as i believe that provide me a loophole. sure, i say, i practiced as well as i could, but i was far from perfect, oh well! no i prefer saying “living these principles in my daily life,” as, at least for me, it leaves very little “wiggle” room when i choose to review my day with a daily inventory. the fact that i was building up a major resentment, justified or not, was weighing me down and when i finally came to the place where i could release it, by taking responsibility for who and what i am, i entered a place of acceptance and serenity. well maybe not total acceptance but certainly a whole lot more than i had, before taking my journey up the hill. this morning, i am all about taking care of doing the next right thing, which happens to be, wrapping this little exercise up, taking yet another meeting and being present for my current employer. yes, i will be painting samples on the house in a bit and yes, i am impatiently waiting to hear from the company that i did my tryout for on Thursday, but all in all, i can let go, and allow myself the freedom to be okay with what i have, just for right now.
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