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of my life is improving, as i take responsibility for my recovery. yesterday i got two vaccines and up until i got to work this morning, i thought i was going to be okay. i still may be able to keep working at the office and as i get closer to the end of the first twenty-four hours i will allow my body to dictate what i do or do not do. as i am quite certain that i am not bulletproof, contrary to what i keep telling myself and the number of risks i take, i am beginning to “feel” every bit of being sixty-five and a half years old, at least now that i am sitting at work, pounding this little ditty out. it is, however, what it is and i am okay admitting that maybe i am bullet-resistant, rather than bulletproof. 🤣
considering what i have to do this week, i am getting concerned about not being ready to accomplish my online coding assessment with the sort of skill i wish to demonstrate. honestly i should take the week off from work, or at least going into the office, so i can divert my attention to getting prepared. what i think i need to do is probably irrelevant, i am unwilling to compromise my integrity to do something i am not getting paid for, especially since i am working on securing my next position. what i will do is remain at work today for as long as i still feel i can be productive and if i start feeling less than stellar, due to my double vaccination experience, i will head on hime, planning on being present in the office tomorrow.
it is ironic that the only reason i have to make either decision today, is because i “got” clean, stayed clean and found the ways and means to live a program of active recovery. what that means, dang it all, is that i do the next right thing, which right here and right now, means getting some more coffee and looking at the backlog to find something to work on, now that my side project has been completed and let go of what is yet to come.

∞ DT ∞