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as my true self. not a difficult concept to grasp but one that seems to be difficult to implement. when i got clean i would have told you that not only did i know who i was but that i faced the world as that man every moment, every day, and in every situation. well a few steps and some time in recovery taught me that not only did i not know who i was, but the manner i faced the world was one of presenting whatever face i needed to present to get whatever it was that i wanted at that moment. so it had come to a time of decision for me, move forward and discover who i was, or move backwards and return to the life of degradation and despair i from which i had been granted a reprieve.
these days i have acquired some knowledge of who and what i am. i have learned a thing or two about where i fit in this chaotic and sometimes confusing world. does that mean i always go forward and interact with that world as my true self? not quite, but i do walk the path with a little more honestly than i did. i do let the world see me as i am now. and i understand that although i am no better than anyone else, i am also not their doormat. i have found the freedom to be who i am in most situations, both professional and social and with that freedom comes the comfort of not having to put-on a mask to face whatever situation i need to today with humility and exactly as i understand myself to be today!
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