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rosy in recovery! one of the biggest lies i hear when my peers are sharing is when they **share for the newcomer.** i have been down this road far too many times in the past, so with that, i think i will move on. work still sucks, ten to thirteen hours in front of my computer, listening to the same people saying the exact same things and thinking that they are being helpful. what i am getting is frustrated and ready to pull the plug and just walk away. what i NEED is a day without fires, so i can get a bit of balance in my work life and get rid of the angst i am feeling every time i open up my work laptop. right here and right now, i know that i have to accept what i have, do my best to make it run better and breathe.
this whole no matter what gig is trying from time to time. i certainly know that a little puff of poison is not going to make work go any better or make my life more balanced, serene and acceptable. i also know that when i allow myself to take on “their” stuff, no matter who “they” happen to be, i give up any power that i may have. my next move is to mark myself out of the office and get some miles in, before the world wakes up and the onslaught begins all over again. i can be okay with what i have and not be obsessive with what i do not have. i have the experience, strength and hope that my peers have given me, it is just time to tap into it. once again.

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