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that reigns among my family, feels overwhelming, especially now as i deal with the issues created with the passing of my Dad. as i consider what is going on inside of me: grief, anger and resolving resentments, i have arrived at a place of tolerance, that just may be changing into accepting that they are doing the best they can with what they have. i do have an advantage here, as i have a support group that accepts that i am insane at times and gives me the strength i need to cope with my own “stuff.”
i am not one of those who judges whether or not someone is an addict, even when they seem to be displaying all the symptoms of addiction. it is true that i have been “around” long enough that i have witnessed all sorts of different ways that those who may think they belong in the rooms, use to separate themselves from actually staying clean long enough to get a sense of the freedom that i have found. i may not be any sort of “expert” on addiction, but i am becoming an expert on what drives me insane, and seeing those that i love, act out, dismiss and disrespect each other, does exactly that. living a program of recovery, may or may not be an example to them, but it certainly gives me a place where i can grow up and own the responsibilities that have been thrust upon me. just for today, i guess i will breathe, allow others to be who they are and find a place of serenity knowing that i have a POWER that will give me the opportunity to get all that i need.

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