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Thu, Jun 3, 2021 08:47:25 AM
🎯 making a 👮
posted: Thu, Jun 3, 2021 08:47:25 AM
daily effort to modify my behaviors that cause harm and strife in the world is an ongoing process, for this addict. as i start to get comfortable in my new skin and see myself as i have always been, but been afraid to acknowledge, the biggest indirect amend i see is learning who this guy is and how he interacts with the world, for real. i still want to hide in plain sight and make sure no one sees me.
this morning, what i heard as i took the time to listen is that no matter what may be going on at home, at work or in the world at large, i do not need to run and hide anymore. letting go of all the stuff that as been causing me angst and allows methe freedom to just chill and relax. as i start each day making plans with the love of my life about what we want to do today, i get a sense of being a part of, rather than away from it all. i can see thatb this amends cycle is going to be one of the most difficult one i have ever done, as most of the amends i see coming my way will be indirect, the BIGGEST being, learning how to honor, love and care for this new person that i have finally started to see.
on that cheery note i think i will put this baby to bed and get ready to get out and about for a day in the woods. yes, there is work to do, daily, on being something am not used to be being. yes i stumble and fall on a daily basis as i try and suss out who this guy is, but just for tday it is worth the effort.
this morning, what i heard as i took the time to listen is that no matter what may be going on at home, at work or in the world at large, i do not need to run and hide anymore. letting go of all the stuff that as been causing me angst and allows methe freedom to just chill and relax. as i start each day making plans with the love of my life about what we want to do today, i get a sense of being a part of, rather than away from it all. i can see thatb this amends cycle is going to be one of the most difficult one i have ever done, as most of the amends i see coming my way will be indirect, the BIGGEST being, learning how to honor, love and care for this new person that i have finally started to see.
on that cheery note i think i will put this baby to bed and get ready to get out and about for a day in the woods. yes, there is work to do, daily, on being something am not used to be being. yes i stumble and fall on a daily basis as i try and suss out who this guy is, but just for tday it is worth the effort.
∞ DT ∞
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While the author is a member of a 12 Step recovery fellowship, these writings are not intended to endorse or express the published wisdom of any fellowship.
These writings are not meant to be socially or politically correct, and if you take issue with any opinions expressed, please seek the guidance of someone wiser than me.
Another Look!
∞ indirectly repairing the damage done ∞ 146 words ➥ Friday, June 3, 2005 by: donnot↔ i seek to repair my broken attitudes as well ! ↔ 462 words ➥ Saturday, June 3, 2006 by: donnot
δ i make direct amends by repairing the damage i do. Δ 339 words ➥ Sunday, June 3, 2007 by: donnot
δ my experience tells me to follow up direct amends … 248 words ➥ Tuesday, June 3, 2008 by: donnot
↔ if i have acted out on our anger, i examine the patterns of my behavior … 497 words ➥ Wednesday, June 3, 2009 by: donnot
⋅ for me the amends process starts with **mending** the actual damage i have done ⋅ 533 words ➥ Thursday, June 3, 2010 by: donnot
¿ i make my amends to the best of my ability ¿ 943 words ➥ Friday, June 3, 2011 by: donnot
↵ i make indirect amends, **mending my ways,** ↵ 732 words ➥ Sunday, June 3, 2012 by: donnot
¹ by repairing the attitudes that cause me to do damage ¹ 638 words ➥ Monday, June 3, 2013 by: donnot
≈ looking soulfully into the eyes of the person i have harmed ≈ 493 words ➥ Tuesday, June 3, 2014 by: donnot
‰ changing my attitudes ‰ 512 words ➥ Wednesday, June 3, 2015 by: donnot
℧ amends, ℧ 596 words ➥ Friday, June 3, 2016 by: donnot
🍦 on making amends, 🍨 758 words ➥ Saturday, June 3, 2017 by: donnot
🏅 implementing changes 👿 553 words ➥ Sunday, June 3, 2018 by: donnot
“ mending my ways ” 504 words ➥ Monday, June 3, 2019 by: donnot
🌤 the damage 🌥 433 words ➥ Wednesday, June 3, 2020 by: donnot
🤨 being willing 🤨 601 words ➥ Friday, June 3, 2022 by: donnot
🎈 the simplicity 🎈 521 words ➥ Saturday, June 3, 2023 by: donnot
😶 making a daily effort 😶 379 words ➥ Monday, June 3, 2024 by: donnot
☯ The Tao that can be spoken is not the eternal Tao ☯
by Lao-Tse
Translated by James Legge
Book 1
2) What is meant by speaking thus of favour and disgrace? Disgrace
is being in a low position (after the enjoyment of favour). The getting
that (favour) leads to the apprehension (of losing it), and the losing
it leads to the fear of (still greater calamity):--this is what is
meant by saying that favour and disgrace would seem equally to be
feared. And what is meant by saying that honour and great calamity
are to be (similarly) regarded as personal conditions? What makes
me liable to great calamity is my having the body (which I call myself);
if I had not the body, what great calamity could come to me?