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can lose their power over me, when i reveal them to someone i trust. i made it through my first week and although i felt like such a NOOB, the feedback i received yesterday at my week one check-in was encouraging. when one considers my experience and where i have been for the past seven years, a NOOB is what comes to mind. as i brush off the cobwebs and the dust of my coding skills, i am sure i will rise to a level of competence that i have achieve in the past. the fact that my vanity gets in the way of asking for a bit of help, is a secret that i revealed yesterday to my boss and mentor and they laughed with me and suggested that as part of the team, i need not struggle with something that can be “crowd-sourced.”
this morning, by the time the sun rises i will be over twelve or thirteen thousand feet above sea level, hammering my way up a treacherous and exciting climb to the summit of Torrey's peak. one the way back down, later this morning, if all goes according to plan, i will summit Gray's peak as well, knocking two more 14'ers off my bucket list, as it were. as i come out from under the cloud that has encased me over the past year, stuff like the trip to Greece, climbing mountains, losing inches and taking a chance on a new job, excite me. while i may have trepidation about any and all of that, i also have a bit of FAITH that i am moving in a direction that is sloughing off the shell that i created to protect myself from being revealed as “broken.” the secret self i so ardently protected, no longer requires being hidden under a patina of social acceptability and conformity. where all that will lead is still a mystery to me, but just for today it is time to get up, get dressed and get ready to climb every mountain.

∞ DT ∞