secrets and trust
Posted: Sat, Aug 28, 2004 10:27:20 AM
i have come to believe that secrets are more than ablock to the recovery process, that they are a slow, fatal systemic poison that will destroy me.
but the cure is almost as bad, i have to TRUST someone enough to share my secrets and thoughts with.
the good news for me is that i do not have to share these secrets at a group or global level unless i choose to do so.
i still have trouble with TRUST bcause somewhere along my path through life i learned that if i TRUST, i will get HURT and after all isn't protection from HURT what this is all about. not really, what this is all about for me is about unlearning those things that keep me sick and learning how to do LIFE on a day to day basis. that includes taking risks, being who i am, and letting someone know what is going on right now. i am really only as sick as my secrets and just for today i can learn to TRUST someone.
-- DT --
but the cure is almost as bad, i have to TRUST someone enough to share my secrets and thoughts with.
the good news for me is that i do not have to share these secrets at a group or global level unless i choose to do so.
i still have trouble with TRUST bcause somewhere along my path through life i learned that if i TRUST, i will get HURT and after all isn't protection from HURT what this is all about. not really, what this is all about for me is about unlearning those things that keep me sick and learning how to do LIFE on a day to day basis. that includes taking risks, being who i am, and letting someone know what is going on right now. i am really only as sick as my secrets and just for today i can learn to TRUST someone.
-- DT --