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oriented life, as a result of staying clean and living a program was not exactly what i signed-up for, way back when. all i desired, once upon those times was freedom fro the justice system. staying in the rooms and continuing my path of living a program, after that desire was met, has led to all sorts of stuff that i never expected. navigating between what i know is good for me and what others may think is good for me, has become a daily journey through a ;land mine field, for which i have no map and no way of seeing where the dangers lie. what i do know, is that if i stay true to myself, the most destructive thing that will happen, is i may get some egg on my face and i may end up having to admit that maybe i did it wrong.
going down a path i started upon yesterday, as i sat this morning, that relationship bubbled up to the top. what came up was the whole minefield metaphor ⟷ caring for myself as well as caring for someone else, without selling my soul or enabling the other person to not live up to their goals. this will be a very tricky proposition and one i have yet to figure out. what i do know is that this flip-flopping of roles has me pretty much confused about the whole enchilada. i know over the next few days, i will have to listen carefully to what i “feel” and allow myself the freedom to follow that direction.
it is off to the cigar store for an afternoon away from the house and away from work. it is a good day when i can step away, now that i have got six miles under my sneakers, my laundry all fluffed, folded and pout away and the yard watered. some days just work out as planned and this one, so far, has gone perfectly. the rest, well one will see, after all i have very little knowledge of what the next minute will bring, much less the next several hours.

∞ DT ∞