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Sun, Apr 3, 2005 09:42:46 AM
∞ fill my place in the world... ∞
posted: Sun, Apr 3, 2005 09:42:46 AM
... with love and life and for this i am grateful.
i sometimes wonder if i am really filling my place in the world with anything but a 200 pounds of flesh. there are days when everything i say and do seems to cause discord and chaos. and there are days when i cannot do anything wrong. this dichotomy causes me to question if i have ever had a spiritual awakening, and everything i do is just random chance, if everything i have done is only postponing my final meltdown , or if the amount of days i have clean is just some sort of fluke.
what i guess i am feeling today is yet another moment of discomfort when i consider exactly what my place in the world is. this consideration always brings different answers and a time of introspection for me.
so i guess considering the evidence that i have just outlined i have had a spiritual awakening, otherwise, i would not even consider what my place is in the world as a whole and if i am really filling it with love and life. so it all comes down to this... i am just another addict in recovery who has made the choice to stay clean today!
∞ DT ∞
i sometimes wonder if i am really filling my place in the world with anything but a 200 pounds of flesh. there are days when everything i say and do seems to cause discord and chaos. and there are days when i cannot do anything wrong. this dichotomy causes me to question if i have ever had a spiritual awakening, and everything i do is just random chance, if everything i have done is only postponing my final meltdown , or if the amount of days i have clean is just some sort of fluke.
what i guess i am feeling today is yet another moment of discomfort when i consider exactly what my place in the world is. this consideration always brings different answers and a time of introspection for me.
so i guess considering the evidence that i have just outlined i have had a spiritual awakening, otherwise, i would not even consider what my place is in the world as a whole and if i am really filling it with love and life. so it all comes down to this... i am just another addict in recovery who has made the choice to stay clean today!
∞ DT ∞
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While the author is a member of a 12 Step recovery fellowship, these writings are not intended to endorse or express the published wisdom of any fellowship.
These writings are not meant to be socially or politically correct, and if you take issue with any opinions expressed, please seek the guidance of someone wiser than me.
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☯ The Tao that can be spoken is not the eternal Tao ☯
by Lao-Tse
Translated by James Legge
Book 1
2) Its upper part is not bright, and its lower part is not obscure.
Ceaseless in its action, it yet cannot be named, and then it again
returns and becomes nothing. This is called the Form of the Formless,
and the Semblance of the Invisible; this is called the Fleeting and
Indeterminable.