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to consider the spiritual principles espoused by my peers enough to keep me clean, or is it just the beginning? after a minute or so clean, this is no longer one of those questions that drive me mad. the answer, at least for me, is of course that is enough to get started and be rocketed into this new manner of living. this morning, as i sit here, listening to my stomach complain about not getting fed, i am struck by the notion that i CHOSE to skip breakfast this morning, so i could have my blood work done during my annual physical. having watched my parents for many years, i decided that i would treat myself and my physical self, with a bit more respect and care, including regularly scheduled visits to the doctor. i really have no health concerns these days, but waiting until something is “wrong” is not how i swing, anymore. i am not expecting any disconcerting news, as i feel and look a whole lot better than i did four years ago, when i embarked on this journey. the weight and the inches did not come off easy, but they did and my biggest concern is that my less than savory eating habits has caused me to gain some weight. be that as it may, i will move on to the next task on this hungry morning.
trying decide what form my workout will take this morning, i seem to keep landing on doing the inside track, instead of the cold rainy streets. life in recovery has provided me options i never thought were going to be a part of my life. being okay with how i look and feel was not something i ever considered having to think about. in active addiction, i did not care and believed that i was healthy and looked that way. denial is a wonderful thang! 🤭 in early recovery, i NEEDED something to replace what kept me from feeling, so i picked up the fork. it was not until i was twenty years c;lean that i decided that maybe, just maybe, there was more to life than just getting by and in a physical sense, i was just getting by. today, by applying those oft quoted spiritual principles, i treat myself with the respect i once reserved for my “betters.” with that thought on the top of my head, it is off to the Rec Center to do a whole lot of lapping around the indoor track, as i am worth more than trudging through the nearly freezing rain, just for today.

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