∞ what do you mean, any lengths? ∞
Posted: Fri, May 5, 2006 07:09:33 AM
the reading today is one that warms me to the cockles of my heart as well as chills me to the bone, depending who is asking this question. when i am asked by a peer, friend or sponsee i have the privilege of explaining in great detail what going to any lengths means to me and my recovery, and what it has meant for me across the course of my time clean. HOWEVER, when i am asking the question of my peers, friends or sponsor, the last thing i want to hear is the onerous and apparently heinous means they may expound on with great gusto.
so the time has come for me to now pause and consider this question in detail. yes my recovery is important to me, but there was a time i was unwilling to travel twelve miles to get to a meeting of my fellowship. my rationalization (and i understand that word means a lie to myself) was that recovery was recovery, regardless of the fellowship i happened to be attending at the moment. after one of my "a-ha moments" i saw this idea for what it was and help start meetings in my home town. you see i was still unwilling to drive those twelve miles every day, but i was willing to get some meetings started and we stumbled, fumbled, and made more than our share of mistakes back in those days, but the outcome is that today, no addict in my home town has my excuse for not going to a meeting of my fellowship -- we have them every day of the week!
do i go to any lengths to maintain my recovery today?? no i can honestly say i do not -- BUT i do go to what some may consider great lengths, although for me those are just the minimum lengths that i need to, to stay clean and grow in my recovery. and if you ask me what those lengths are, i will gladly tell you at great lengths, :))!
so the time has come for me to now pause and consider this question in detail. yes my recovery is important to me, but there was a time i was unwilling to travel twelve miles to get to a meeting of my fellowship. my rationalization (and i understand that word means a lie to myself) was that recovery was recovery, regardless of the fellowship i happened to be attending at the moment. after one of my "a-ha moments" i saw this idea for what it was and help start meetings in my home town. you see i was still unwilling to drive those twelve miles every day, but i was willing to get some meetings started and we stumbled, fumbled, and made more than our share of mistakes back in those days, but the outcome is that today, no addict in my home town has my excuse for not going to a meeting of my fellowship -- we have them every day of the week!
do i go to any lengths to maintain my recovery today?? no i can honestly say i do not -- BUT i do go to what some may consider great lengths, although for me those are just the minimum lengths that i need to, to stay clean and grow in my recovery. and if you ask me what those lengths are, i will gladly tell you at great lengths, :))!
∞ DT ∞