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missing ingredient to my life, is a noble goal for me these days. although the the entry today, speaks to that ingredient being a connection with a HIGHER POWER and a rich spiritual life, i am seeing it more these days as a connection with my “true” self that i denied for decades on end. i can say that my spiritual connection, once i finally surrendered to allowing it to be different than most of my peers, was what led me to a yearning with connecting with the self i have hidden behind walls and fake fronts. now that i have the confidence i once lacked to step out of the roles that i so carefully crafted, i am finding that not everyone in my life is comfortable with who i am, and for once i can let that go and put that on them it really is too bad that they choose not to move into this brave new world that has such people in it, like myself.
on my frustrating drive into work this morning, i had the opportunity to pause for a second and allow myself the FREEDOM to be okay with where i was in the line of traffic. of course, just as soon as i achieved a bit of balance in that, someone decided they needed to be in every lane and speed ahead of any cars that happened to be in their course of travel. i certainly hope their bright and shiny car, survived the journey and lasts longer than the temporary tags that it was sporting, as the manner in which they were driving it, precludes it lasting for very long. once again, not my stuff.
what is my stuff is to provide my employer the best employee i can be today, even if no one is watching me. it is my task to be kind and considerate and not expect any recognition for acting in that manner. it is my job to remove any barriers i have placed between and happiness. most of all, it is my task to be genuine and whole today, as that will lead to being self-assured. to the very first point of this paragraph, it is time to fuel up and knuckle down on my project, here at work. just for today, i can be all of that and so much more.

∞ DT ∞