๐ grace in my ๐
Posted: Thu, Dec 28, 2023 09:17:01 AM
treatment of others or better put, treating others as i would have them treat me. i have a friend who walks through life with a ginormous chip on his shoulder, popping off at what he perceives is disrespect and believing that the world has it in for him. no matter how many times i have given him what i think is fairly sound and sage advice: if one want to earn the respect of others, one needs to be respectful of them. having erred on the wrong side of this a few too many times, i keep coming back to it on my nightly inventory and learning to live in that place is a task i undertake on a daily basis. part of living in this world these days, at least for me, is to get through each day with a minimal wake of anything left in my trail. not quite leave no trace but certainly leave minimum chaos.
as i sat and as i climbed the imaginary mountain in the gym, i kept coming back to my friend and how much i was like him, or at least how much i once was like him and how much i could certainly become like him once again. what makes me different these days, is my desire to be less of what i once was and more of what i am becoming. i do not believe i am on my way to sainthood nor do i want to deny the human part of me that craves attention, affection, love and respect i also know that in order to receive those gifts, i have to be willing to give them out freely, to all i interact with, on a daily basis. even though i no longer believe giving and receiving respect is a zero sum game, i still catch myself wonder why the fVck someone would say or do that to me. before i lash out, which is still a reaction of mine, i have to see what part i may have played and what i may need to do to keep the situation from escalating. some of the time, i have no part and walking away i until my head cools off, is the next right thing to do. …and so it goes.
i do have stuff to accomplish and places to be, so i will get bundled up and get the dawg out for her daily scratch and sniff. i know that i am more than likely doing better than i think i am. it is ma good day to remember and live by my own sage advice, if I want respect and courtesy, than I need to treat others with respect and courtesy, just for today.
as i sat and as i climbed the imaginary mountain in the gym, i kept coming back to my friend and how much i was like him, or at least how much i once was like him and how much i could certainly become like him once again. what makes me different these days, is my desire to be less of what i once was and more of what i am becoming. i do not believe i am on my way to sainthood nor do i want to deny the human part of me that craves attention, affection, love and respect i also know that in order to receive those gifts, i have to be willing to give them out freely, to all i interact with, on a daily basis. even though i no longer believe giving and receiving respect is a zero sum game, i still catch myself wonder why the fVck someone would say or do that to me. before i lash out, which is still a reaction of mine, i have to see what part i may have played and what i may need to do to keep the situation from escalating. some of the time, i have no part and walking away i until my head cools off, is the next right thing to do. …and so it goes.
i do have stuff to accomplish and places to be, so i will get bundled up and get the dawg out for her daily scratch and sniff. i know that i am more than likely doing better than i think i am. it is ma good day to remember and live by my own sage advice, if I want respect and courtesy, than I need to treat others with respect and courtesy, just for today.
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