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let me know i am not the only person who has been depressed in recovery. so the sun is coming back, the holiday season is nearly over and as predicted, that darkness of spirit i felt is starting to lift. practically right on schedule, as it were. well, a little bit ahead, as the acupuncture and message session i had a few weeks ago, started to part the clouds. so my conditio0n as temporary as it is, is nothing compared to the suffering i see in some of my peers. i know that they may have real mental illnesses, but something that disturbs me about that, is that they use that to define themselves, and put limits on far they can go in their recovery. the last thing i want is to be defined by a collection of diseases, disorders and behaviors. while all of those are part of me, and make up who i am, they are NOT who i am. i am more than the sum of my less than desirable parts. that is the case now, and if i continue my journey towards becoming the man i want to be, that will continue to be the case, in the future.
i know how easy it is to define myself as the sum of emotional and mental disorders, after all, i identify myself as an addict. i am more than just an addict though, i am an addict in recovery, who is doing his best to live a spiritual program, even when he does not feel like it. that includes living my life like i always do, even though i do not feel like it.
speaking of that, i need to get running and get some stuff done before my hoem group this morning. it is a good day to be clean and even a better day to accept that just for today, no matter how much i feel like it, i can live my life to the fullest!

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